my expectations from my frnds are the biggest enemy of mine nd m addicted to b hurted by others......

the most  bad part of my nature is my attachment with everyone.
everyone which talk wid me wid happiness i think that he/she is my frnd nd will nvr break my trust nd here is the reason lies dat i get hurted. actually i feel everything by my heart nd got tnsed very easily....also my thinking doesnt change from person to person according to me all r my gud frnds nd no one here is selfish thaat he/she will hurt me. but i think dis quote is true that  WATER IS FOR FISHES ND EARTH IS FOR SELFISHES.
when i start expecting happiness from my frnds dey leave me as a unknown stranger....i only want the love,care,understanding and trust of my frnds..but unfortunately no one try to understand me. i smile for the smile of my frnds but inside i cry nd ask god again  and agian whats my fault dat happiness comes in my life for a very short interval. many frnds came in my life nd make a very much gud impact but when i start entring dem in my life dey quit silently..........some says k m always crying datm alone alone but the reality is sometimes i feel so alone dat i wanna to quit dis world...how much pain i feel alone only my god knows.........now i start expecting nothing from nyone nd try to remain alone nd making my frnds happy.....

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LIFE IS NOT AS EASY AS I THOUGHT BEFORE.....

when i was a child i used to think that when i grow up nd come to coolege, life will b more easy nd i will get everything what i want, i have my frnds a lots of frnds nd dey will understand me nd i will understand dem. means i thought only about good things as i see in tv nd movies.

now at present m going to finish my 2 years of college life nd still finds that i have nothing as i imagine before.....except 2-3 frnds who understand me but still dey sometimes ignore me......

i used to think k i will do everything for my frnds which make dem happy nd dey prod to b called me as der frnd but i forgot that this world is called as MEAN WORLD, everyone runs behind his/her own benefit nd no one bothers about nyone. but i think its true coz we r studying, doing work only for our own livlihood nd here i make a mistake in understanding the people.

in clg the first frnd f mine was gaurav den came aman, chetan,khushboo,anmol,areet,anirudh nd slowly slowly the whole class.......all r very gud nd the thing is dat i expected more from dem nd dis creates probs for me many times...many frnds walk wid me to share my joys nd sorrows but may b dey dont hav trust on me so by listening others dey left me wothout ny cause.

also the biggest banner dat all put on my head is that m BAD BOY as most of my times u can see me gossiping wid a girl. dats true coz i dont know but due to the grace of god i have many female frnds nd dis seems a prob for many of my frnds....i tell dem but they dont understand...many make der mind in a wrong manner....my nature of getting emotionally attached wid everyone is my big enemy....some my frnds who understand me always ready to help me out when m sad but i cant tell dem coz i think SHARE HAPPINESS COZ IT INCREASES WID SHARING ND KEEP UR SORROWS WID U COZ IT MAKES OTHERS SAD. my funda is dat k i nvr want to see nyone sad due to mine prob...m trying my best to make everyone happy nd if god is watching i know i will also get happiness..............