on 2nd july our training got finished nd i had to return to home forcefully as my frnds told my parents dat now training is finished nd no need to remain at chd so b at home.
dey also told my parents about all the time i spend chd..............parents got sad but when i reached home everythong gone fine when dad cleared all the things wid me.......
now unfortunately mpm is at hospital nd time is going very bad for me due to d reason dat she is not well but also dat now when i go to hospital for seeing her she nvr talk to me nd nvr watch towards me. always ignore me. my presence or absence doesnt effects her........dis hurts me a lot.........
dad's behave is very frank now but i dont knw why mom is doing like dis......
slowly nd slowly m loosing all my frnds due to my mistakes of present nd past.............feeling so lonely dat eyes always filled wid tears......but cant express dem in front of nyone.....coz i dont deserve ny best frnd...buggi is der but for how much time i will always cry in front of her...i know sometimes she says things unintetionally nd i ignore dem but nowadays she make me to think that m soo bad dat many of my things r not seem gud to her.....yr i have changed a lot nd becoming a person without the past habbits...plss yr try to understand me m very dipressed......i was a bad one nd i tried a lot to b a gud one but i think dis will nvr happens nd my badluck will nvr leaves me for dis whole sucking life...an old saying is dat,"a useless life is an early death" nd i think if dis is true den my life is far worse dan death..............
GOS I PRAY TO U ,EITHER REMOVE DESE CIRCUMSTANCES OR GRANT ME A DEATH.......I CANT LIVE LIKE DIS........I KNOW DIS IS D PUNISHMENT FOR MY SINS BUT MY PATIENCE R ENDING....I ALSO WANT HAPPINESS........plsssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss
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